Besides being a artists, wife, and mother, I work part time as a lunch lady at our local middle school. One day I was washing down the tables in the cafeteria, when one of the girls I painted a mural for a few years ago started talking
to me. She said that her sister painted over the mural I did for her.
"yeah she painted it all purple." My jaw...dropped!!" I
could barely utter the word..."what??" "Why?" I asked. She shrugged her
shoulders and went on her merry way. I just stood there, and a flood of
memories, and emotions came over me.
I remember how excited I felt about that opportunity to paint a underwater mural. I studied different techniques of
blending paints, researching different underwater creatures and coral,
studying the reflection the light gives underwater, and all the time I
took to prepare for painting this mural. I also remember my aching body from the physical effort it took to paint it. The bending, stretching, and holding my breath hoping paints would blend the way I wanted them to. But what I remember the most was the joy!! The indescribable joy I felt when I finished. The smile that came across my
face as I stepped back to take the final look of this mural. (see below for the mural) It was so
beautiful. It was breathtaking. Oh how I love using this talent that God has blessed me with!!
Sigh...but now all covered up...with purple..(gulp) paint...gone... in
one swipe of a brush, or roll of a roller. My heart broke. :( (Now don't
get me wrong I know it's totally up to the client to do what they want
when they buy my art, it's theirs after they pay for it.) Free will...yep...I
get it!
But my conversation with that girl, got me
thinking of God. I wonder if that's the way He feels when we destroy His
creation. When we hurt our bodies with drugs, alcohol, smoking, overeating, etc.
What this must do to the Fathers heart. I also wonder, does it hurt Him when we look
in the mirror and we hate ourselves? We hate the way we look, it may be
your hair, your nose, your smile, your butt, your stomach. Whatever it
is that you don't like about yourself. What this must do to the Father's
heart, to hear your rip on yourself. When we are made in His very
image.
I imagine Him taking great care in creating us. Just like I do to
create a piece of art. You are like a blank canvas to Him. I can picture His face smiling saying I'm going
to give her blue eyes like ocean, or I will give Him strong shoulders for heavy work.
In Eph 2:10 it says. For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us
anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us
long ago.
For years I had a horrible self image. I let satan
whisper to me and tell me lies about myself. It wasn't til I started
digging into God's word and it revealed to me how much God loves me. Let
me encourage you stop ripping on yourself, stop hurting yourself! You
are created for SO much more!! You are God's masterpiece, created in HIS
image...and as my little girl says.."God don't make junk!" Amen!!
Wendy your post made me both smile and cringe. I know that we are not living in our 'forever' home now and that one day we will move. I shudder to think that someone might one day paint over the masterpiece you created in Bella's room and honestly, its one of the reasons why we haven't already looked for a larger home - I just love her Castle as well as the other girls rooms. Whenever I think about moving, I secretly hope that whoever lives in our home next also has a little princes and then all they would need to do is replace the "Bella" with their daughter's name. Problem solved! LOL
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